Today is Amber's birthday party. We are having a few friends over and most likely a ton of food; this is a family tradition we baptists uphold. My brother-in-law once said, "baptists have to eat a lot because there are so many other things we
don't do!"
Yesterday I had wanted to go to Dan's soccer game, but after many false hopes of a ride over there, I decided that it was most likely not the Lord's will for me to go! Anyway, they won and I got a lot of shopping and school done. Today my parents and I went to Target and Sam's. I usually prefer to stay home when they go to these places because I have HW to do or possibly just don't feel like leaving the house (seeing as how I am hardly there any more). Today, after spending literally all day alone yesterday, I wanted to be around people. When I didn't have school and work, I wanted to get away from the house and do things alone. Now, I spend very little time at home, and what time I do spend at home is usually uninterrupted because I have so much homework. I leave the house usually at 8:30 Am (this is after trying to get ready and read my Bible and eat alone), and I go to school and sit through 2 classes. After class I go to the library or computer lab where I can have quiet to study. After that, I go home at about 1:15PM and have enough time to eat while I do some homework. I eat and immediately change for work and that's when I say goodbye and go to work until 6PM. I then come home and do one of four things: eat and go to piano then come home to do inserts, go pick up papers and begin, go to church, go on base for Thursday papers.
I am busy, which can isolate me at times, because if I let up in my schedule and don't do certain things, it all falls apart. If I don't multi task and put off events that I want to go to, I get bad grades in one class or get in trouble for not doing something my parents told me to. Every spare moment, literally, every one minute is precious to fit in as much work or accomplish as much as possible. I don't like being so so busy, but the Lord is teaching me to rely on His provision and rely on Him to work everything together so it turns out right. It IS moments like this that I am thankful for that I can find a few to dump my thoughts! Daniel also is a big help because he isnt a demanding bf and is very understanding. Neither of us used to be very understanding about time management with our relationship, I was so busy all of the time and he just wanted me to spend a ton with him and some times vise versa. After a while and many talks he and I have learned that sometimes modern relationships get to be too much about what one person wants and that we had to be understanding that we are both busy and really appreciate the time we do have together. But now, I have to go help with food and will hopefully be able to find TIME to write more later haha.
